Greetings Faithfull Watchers and Idiots,

Right so.. I just realised... actualy no I realised this over the course of my life to be honest.. that how I have lead my life has been fantasmicly hap-hazard for somone so frustrated by and with an explicit Hatred of change.
No not spare change.. love that! I'm a tight bastard and count the pennys.
But real change.. things like the menial day to day changes that normal people brush from there shoulder, like haveing to take a different route to work or college.. or haveing a meeting reschedualed.. You know.. the kind of stuff that life is full of...... yeah.
My life recently over the past few years has been very hap-hazard and i've NEVER stuck to anything.. which is quite ridiculous for somone that hates change..

I'm nearing my 20th birthday milestone bollocks that shouldn't mean anything but somehow does and I feel I realy need to grow up.. I'm still acting like a child with most of my life and haven't got a full-time Job... I've wasted most of my life chopping and changing my mind about what I wan't to do and now i've found that the harsh reality is.. life's a struggle and as the great philosopher Mick Jagger once said "You can't always get what you want"....

That explains it realy.. and thats basically whats happening.. i'm growing up.. getting a job.. getting a driving licence, a form of transport.. a full-time job and then? moving out? hopefully finding a place and changing my life for somthing slightly better... where i'm not relying on others or wasteing time chaseing dreams and getting thumped back down to reality like I have done for 19 years.

So yes, Growing up, moving on, hopefully moving up and most probably shipping out to some dreary bedsit for me to to make into a blissful paradise of mould, damp and perpetual darkness.. oh deep joy. At one time in my life that I have come to remember now for some reason or another I was told this..
"Gareth you could be an Astronaut, an Artist, a Doctor or a Vet or anything your Heart desires.." seems i'm going to be lumped with a deadend menial job like the bulk of "Society"... which is good.. in a way...
after all is said and done.. whatever happens.. I'm still me.

and yeah sorry about that.


anyway that's enough for this mans illiterate scribblings..

From the Quill of Gareth Edgell.